When I was brainstorming my ideas for my studio lighting project, I knew I wanted to use objects that had been disregarded and abandoned. When I was taking my first shots in the studio, I wanted to convey how my relationships and hobbies in the past had disfigured me as an individual. Over the years, I have been through multiple friendships and have been manipulated constantly. It is hard for me now to this day to keep a steady relationship with people and trust those who are in my life today. For my studio setup, I gathered used vintage clocks and set the time on each clock to the date December tenth. That specific date was when I lost one of my best friends from childhood. The final result of the image reveals the foggy-like sense of the clocks stacked on top of one another and illustrates my relationships over time. 

I then decided to display the vibrant eyeshadow pallet I used as a little girl for my ballet recitals. As a little girl, my parents forced me to dance since I wasn’t interested in any other hobbies, and I absolutely hated dancing. I felt I wasn’t good as the other girls or pretty enough to compete with other dancers. The eyeshadow pallet was left behind in my closet, hidden away, and I decided to use it for my project and reveal my eye in the mirror of the pallet. The reflection of my face is supposed to be looking at the viewer intensely and for them to be put into my perspective. The plate I am also holding in the photograph is full of jewelry I also wore at my recitals. The last photograph is a picture of my spare ballerina shoes that were stored in a box in my mom’s closet. These were my first ballerina shoes, and they had my name written on the bottom of the shoes. These shoes are a symbol of the past and represent contempt.